So much love, so much pain,
So much togetherness, so much disdain.
So much to say, so much to share.
How did it all go so haywire?
We drifted apart with mistrust and lie,
Don’t know exactly when, how or why.
From meeting everyday and talking hours on phone
To being too busy with separate laptops of our own.
Till the drift slowly turned into a great divide,
And I felt you had more and more things to hide.
And I felt inadequate, not worthy of your confidence,
Our friendship my truth, and your mere pretence.
I dreamt too big, making plans unrealistic and mad,
You mum, coz you are too
kind to say anything bad.
I doubted myself, as a friend and as a person,
And with each passing day, that feeling would just worsen,
And I would find new ways to retreat away from all,
Because it hurt too much to see you hide and stall.
I know it’s all in my head, and that I am being crazy,
But some days all the good memories are plain hazy.
And on such days, when I am feeling lonely and low,
When nothing makes sense, and I just want to let go.Because true love conquers everything only in the books,
Because real life is full of cheats, hypocrites and crooks.
And I can't find any happy thoughts to put an end to this sorrow.
Well, who cares anyway, we ultimately die, today or tomorrow.
